I find myself in a very evanescent state currently. I'm tired, yet want no sleep. I want to do work, yet have no will to bring myself to do any of it. I'm procrastinating yet am anxious about doing it.
I think about people and the state of the world, the country, the state, and I find myself disgusted. What is it about human nature that makes us so vile toward one another. Even with all the good, and all the heart, and all the potential, what makes us so conniving and evil, and heartless at times? Why can we feel sad at one moment, and yet be ecstatic and overjoyed the next? What makes us work like this?
How can reason control certain emotions and urges, yet be completely naked and defenseless against others? What's the point of emotions? And yet what a stupid question to ask.
"Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying"
I'm unsure of myself, yet annoyed that I'm subject to the same base insecurities and emotions as everyone else. I like to consider myself above others, yet find that in many circumstances I am worse than anyone I speak against. I am a hypocrite. Who?
The Who, you know the band. They're playing the super bowl this year. I want to be able to write stream of consciousness, yet I know I can't. My skills as a writer are nowhere near good enough. And that bothers me. I want to be good at everything, yet rarely succeed. So I give up or fail to even try, and simply convince myself that would have been good had I tried and take on an air of superiority without actually accomplishing anything.
I have over 50 pages of English to read for tomorrow, and yet I can't stop procrastinating. And what good is sex for anyway? It feels good at times, but at other times it can be burdening. And then when its over, it just feels weird that the body would overpower the mind over something so insignificant.
You know I've never seen the Godfather. And the healthcare bill debate bothers me. I find people who oppose socialized healthcare to be moronic. I don't understand the conservative mindset on most social issues. And why is sale of sexual toys in Alabama illegal and must be funneled through the "medical use" clause? I mean who cares if Joe down the street is diddling himself with a fake vagina. People are fucking morons.
You know, they played all those songs. Who? The who...I'm sure I'm misquoting it, but oh well.
You know I heard a quote once that said there's no room for limp dicks on mars. To this day, that to me personally is the only true statement I've ever heard. It is the most real and substantial thing I've ever heard, and the only thing that makes sense no matter what.
I wonder what their set list is going to consist of...?
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